2 months. That’s all we have left. 2 months. 58 days until prom and 68 days until graduation. Time has definitely flown by, but with the amount of work we’ve received recently and the lack of study halls have made these past few weeks difficult. I’m relieved to say that I’ve committed to a college. I know where I’m going to go and I’m proud to say that I will spend the next four years at the University of Pennsylvania. So now what? What happens now?
After visiting college, it’s so hard to come back to high school. It’s hard to be back in a place that you’re trying desperately to get out of. After you meet the type of people that you want more time to get to know, and after you’ve envisioned yourself going there and you’ve been given handed the independence you’ve always wanted…*sigh* Do you get where I’m going with this?
I’ve committed to college and I don’t want to do any more work. I don’t want to care about my grades. I don’t want to adhere to anymore deadlines. I don’t want to have to take a bathroom pass when I leave class. I have college fever, and I don’t know what to do to shake it off.
Actually, I lied. Sorry about that. I do know how to shake it off, because college isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. I know that. I can’t be that naive. When I think about leaving my best friends in August, college doesn’t really seem like the most fun thing to do anymore. When I think about the tests and exams that’ll be ten times harder, I feel hesitant about stepping into the next chapter of my life. The pressure that comes with going to an Ivy League school isn’t pleasant either.
I will be three hours from the familiarities of home and 5 hours from the friends that have had a role in shaping me into the person I am today. The more I try to shake off college fever, the scarier college seems.
So, do you see my dilemma? I’ve finally committed to college…now what?